5 Star General

2010-05-03T02:05:00.002+08:00

Yes, things happen again and again, how many PROMISES I WANNA TO BREAK???
I know u don't want to see all this stuffs, I understand your feelings, I know how you feel, I even know hurting you more and more with her stuffs... I make you, affected u think about it each time you found the stuffs, and you hate me, now you hate me...

Enough??? Hide??? keep about her???
My past has become history, I don't how to totally clear out my history.
do you think I perposely want to hurt you??? perposely let u find all this stuffs???
I have totally forget every things about her, totally throw all my memories about her, I don't remember what things have left over... and why I need to keep her things??? every things you found out also the stuffs that I have forgotten... and each of the time you find it before me...

What I going to do??? How I going to do???
girl is girl, thn what about me???-- no feel???
Im a disappointer, Im a faker, Im a layer,
Im Useless even Im a FOOL...

I don't wish to see you like that...
I know you wont accept any sorrry word...
but anyhow...

Im so sorry to you...
Im not perposely...
I have try my best...

SORRY...
really and truthfully SORRY...

To the special one...

2010-03-31T16:38:00.002+08:00

Today I found a friend,

Who know everything I feel.
she know my every weakness,
and the problems I’ve been facing.

she understood my wonders,
and listened to my problems,
she listened to how I feel about life and love,
and she know what my love feel like.
Not once did she interrupt me,
or tell me I was wrong.

She understood what I was going through,
and promised she will stay long,
I show her that I truly love and care for her,
to put her close and let her know,
how much I need her there.

I go and hold her hand always,
to pull her a bit near to me,
and realized that this perfect friend I found,
and is the most important person in my life.

Oh god...

2010-03-27T09:43:00.002+08:00

Things happen recently goes badly,
I dun understand why all things will become like that...
I hope all this will gone soon,
everything will end soon...

I know she is worried,
I know she is scare,
she is sad, unhappy,
she worried, worried and worried...
she keep thinking thinking and thinking...
wat can I do for her to make her feel confortable???
wat can I do to keep her safe???
wat can I do to keep her happy like previously???
wat can I do to let her run out of all this???

I dun wish to see her lik tht,
I dun wancus of me and mess up her life,
cause of me, all things bad things invloving her...
cause of me, all serious things go after her...
I feel so so so guilty,
cause of me, she need to take up all this...

I feel sori to her,
and even now she still in worried on the other of her,
and I dunno how to confort her to make her clam down...
I hope every one around us will understand,
I hope every one around us will give us a chances,
I hope every things can make a full stop right at the conner.
I hope every things juz happen on me and not her...

Oh god...
we really pray so hard to make things go easily,
we really pray pray pray hard...
save us to make her life go smooth and well...

2010-03-02T04:19:00.002+08:00

I know you are angry,
I understand why you angry...

Yea, many of the promises that I said before,
most of that I never do what I have said...
all of this make you disappointed again and again...

what have promised or what I have say in the past,
if I didn't make it or do it or did it,
I hope that you won't keep it in your heart and mind...

Suddenly I felt too much things are happening around...
like all the unexpected problem keep happening on me,
especially my luck is not that good recently...
So I think I messy up many of the things...

I'm so sorry to you my Darling...
I'm very very sorry to you Baobei Laopo...
I'm here to apologize to you all my wrong...
I know for you is very hard forget what is already happen...

But Baobei Laopo, from now onwards at this moment,
I PROMISE I will do all the things I say...
I will show you and prove that I will did it...
I won't repeat my mistake again, and it is the LAST TIME...
Plz listen to my promise and plz give fully trust on me...
I will not make you disappointed anymore...
plz forgive me Baobei Laopo...
I will remanage all things...
I should more understnding and "ti liang" you...

Trust, Believe and Confident
"Zhang Kong",Understanding and "Ti Liang"

I Promise you Laopo...

Hope All Things will Getting Better

2010-02-06T21:12:00.002+08:00

Happening bad luck is a nightmare for me...
Few days ago keeping my moody on face...
hoping that the mare will go off soon...
cus all that keep wondering me around...
even effect my attitude which my mom feel i had change a lot...

Helping mother clean a bit of the house,
My car has ready and bring out from the workshop,
it look like totally new,
cus change a lot of things which cost more than 1k I think...

Now at grandma house,
cus bring my car for car wash...
the bad things is raining now,
OH my god, I juz send my car for washing...
after rain stop, I go drive it bck...
now the car look nicer and like my FERRARI car...
Thanks father that you bring this car for me...
I will keep this car very well...

Day is dark, wife arrive her home,
cus she go out with her best friends...
but 2molo, I going out with her,
feeling happy cus can meet her again...

one of my uncle come and visit my grandma,
My house dogs which is POPEY and RANGER...
this two dog have send to this uncle workshop...
and i hear from my uncle,
RANGER have gone, it died...
I feel very sad about it,
cus RANGER is my lover pet,
I miss Ranger much...

Best day

2010-02-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

Finally clean up my room,
with a confortable room,
give a nice and wonderful night...

My car at the workshop getting done,
cus now waiting colour spare,
thn I ask my father to add one side of the car skirt,
so may take sometime to bring the car out...

Using father car, finally can meet my wife...
feel very happy when i meet her,
cus many days never meet each other,
so quite missing each other...

now feeling much better,
feel very sweet in my life...

Haiz... "SUI"

2010-02-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

Entering February...
Finish final exam, holiday begin...
Chinese new year is coming soon...
have a few plan with my wife during holidays...

Planing to have a trip to Sunway Piramid --- For ice skitting,
Planing to have a trip to Genting Highlands --- For theam park,
Planing to have a trip to K.Lumpur City Center --- For buy cny shirt,

Planing for my own to clean up my room,
Planing for my own to clean up Guinea Pig Family.

By the way, few days ago happening a terrible case,
Having quite serious accident in MRR 2 which near ampang,
Getting scold by papa on phone even after back home...
I remember that is nearly mid night when I have the accident...
Just a few min, town man coming all around...
On the sport Im nervous and tention...
All d town man keep talking talking talking with me...
talk to me how to settle all this and that...
I ignore them, but they keep talking to me...
I know wat they want, they just want to have business...

After sometimes, I still ignore them...
they start doing some small action while Im do not notice...
they stolen my hand phone and a PSP...
this PSP is not belongs to me, but it is meaningful to some one very much...
Im so sorry about that...
They even taken the umbralla in my car, tourch light at side door...

I rejected their offer to town my car,
cause I know my car still can move,
they go and let off my tyre air,
they take out a nut to let go the radiator water...
what the f**king BABI of this group MALAY town man...

When I drive half way only I realise my car had been disturbed...
lucky my papa arrived earlier and keep following behide me for safety...
When I reach home only I relise things had been stolen...

Omg... What the bad bad luck I haven...
Is totally Bad Luck run with me...
Wat can I do???

This few days totally bad mood,
really really bad mood,
do not have the mood to do anythings...
Ignored my parents at house this few days...
I hope every thing will be ok...
I hope every thing will be fine...
I hope every thing will be settled...

I hope after all that lost will change further life better...
Better life to welcoming Chinese New Year...

New Life Begin

2009-09-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Finished my final exam,
Now having two week semester break…
During this semester break it is quite free for me,
Turning around look on my pass,
There have lots of things happened,
There have lots things have changed…

I started to create my own blog,
Before this can say is not active on it,
But think deeply there got lots of things I can put in,
I can share, I can voice, I can show, I can tell……

The thing I changed a lot is my personal relationship,
It can say I change, learn or maybe I gain…
Before this, I start a relationship in 2007 October,
This relationship carry shortly and that can say is my first relation,
I’m 18th yrs old that time, so I take it seriously…
Months pass by quickly, me and that girl leaving in different places with far distance,
At the last meet up the sad conclusion….
From the bad conclusion begin; I keep waiting, waiting, waiting and waiting,
But I do not know what I waiting for???
Maybe on that time I just haven get prepare to let go that relationship.
At this time in college life, I have met some good friends,
Like Bong Yang, Jack Ho, Michael, Sung Nung and some others who tell me a lot,
I appreciate them to explain, let me understand what I have to do and what I need to do.
They teach how, but I really do not understand what a “love” is???
Most of the time, they keep telling me, teaching me, consulting me about my problems I meet.
But I’m still unawake, maybe I need is the Time, I do told them that and they agree with me.
Passing by with playful life, flirting around with girls, to made myself forget the pain,
I think I doing all that is working to me, end up is totally not because, I still keep thinking…
One day, Bong Yang come to me and said: “Just make it easy, you can do it.”
“Flirting and playing around is not a good way.” From this few word, I totally awake from blur.

Today started a new relationship some days ago,
I believe I’m serious on it, I care on it a lot, so I will run through this relationship…
Just be what I going to be, maybe I still not very understand on it,
But I am willing to learn, willing to gain…
I will appreciate currently relationship,
I will try my best to treat the secret person well,
I will give mine everything to her, especially happiest…

So brothers, Bong Yang and Jack Ho, special thanks for both of you…
Thanks helping me and give me awake, now I found where my way is and what I want…
Thank you… the secret person is my target…

Too Bad Of The Arrangement

2009-07-27T11:59:00.009+08:00

Knowing that 25th July Saturday,
SMSSGH having a alummi high table dinner night.
I very happy to hear that and been invited,
I make a phone call to Mr. Patrick and said that I'm coming,
but end up my boss told me in last min that I having a Magical Clown Show during the night,
the show start from 8pm untill 9.30pm at Bukit Rimau, Kota Kemuning.
so it is time clashing with the alummi night and unable to attend,
I sms Mr. Patrick for apologize my absent...

I feel wasted and unhappy with not attending the night,
because that is only a time for me to meet all my friends, seniors, junior, tutors and my school,
I love SMSSGH a lot, there keep a lot of my memories,
I miss SMSSGH a lot, there make me grow and change me in different,
I like SMSSGH a lot, there teach me more understanding in mind,
SMSSGH let me gain a lot of things, let me have lot of changes,
even now I proudly to be a student of SMSSGH,
although there have a lot dislike of controling,
but I understand this is under procedure and school decision management.
no matter how, it is my formal school in my life that I like the most.
The Moment I Miss and Love -- SMSSGH
However, I will visit the school some other days when I have free time...
I will try to attend the coming up event if having in the school.

At last word to all students still studing in SMSSGH,
William Shakespeare said: "To be or not to be, that is a question"
So just be what you are, just be a student that should have a student characteristic,
maybe study smart and getting good result in 1st,
but in 2nd also have others to be, make sure subject not in bad purpose.
to be a active person or a follower is up to your choice,
cause right choice will have different color of your life.
you will know after you graduate.

The Complicated Word

2009-07-22T01:05:00.006+08:00

杯子寂寞，被人倒进开水，
滚烫的感觉，杯子想这就是恋爱的感觉；
水变温了，杯子便也觉得很舒服，
它想这也许就是生活的感觉；
水变凉了，杯子有些害怕，
也许这就是怕失去的感觉；
水彻底地变凉了，杯子很难受，
便想把水倒出来… 水终于被倒出来了。
杯子感到很舒服，但当杯子不小心掉在地上摔成碎片的那一瞬，
它猛然间发现每一个碎片上居然都还留有水的痕迹，
这时的它才明白原来自己还是很爱水的，
于是它想再完整地爱一次水但却已经是不可能的了…
难道一切的一切都只有到失去了才懂得珍惜吗？
好好珍惜现在所拥有的吧~送给大家，希望你们学会了“珍惜”

记得要珍惜很爱很爱你的人。
因为爱很难捉摸... 并不是每个人都可以如此爱你。
爱到会为你付出... 只为了换取你的快乐... 就算自己受伤也无所谓...
所以...
男生不要辜负了爱你的女孩...
女孩也一样不要辜负了男孩对你的真心...
不管男女都好, 追求幸福并不是很难的事...
只要努力过就够了…
不能爱就祝福他快乐吧…!
爱一个人的时候, 记得要清楚的告诉他...!
爱他又不敢说出口...何必呢...?
把你的心情告诉你喜欢的人,他一定会清楚知道你的心意的...

总是在无人的夜里独自哭泣，我的心碎落一地，
既然留不住这段感情，再说什么都是多余。
留下一道深深的伤痕抹不去，我的爱破碎支离，
所以我只能选择逃离，因为情已无处可依。
无怨无悔真心真意，让我不由自主想起过去，
让美丽的记忆永远相随。

做个逍遥汉，胜过痴情汉，
哭笑悲乐，任逍遥。。。
逍遥自有逍遥游，
有时还可以一笑而过。